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Anxiety

 People dont realize that they sign up for a 3 some with me being double headed as a Gemini and letting my anxiety live inside of me, I can see two perspectives from two different views know matter if it right or wrong, but I still have this anxiety that controls the two; 

I have conflict with one side telling me to be true and the other telling me to stay cool, and there the one in the middle that is my glue or I mean my anxiety talking through, I want to stand out, but I hide under a rock because the times I try to define myself I get ambushed by my anxiety herself;

People not knowing that  I scratch my eyes out and bleed when the lights out because I fight two people who is just lonely and branded out and reliving each day of what my anxiety spelled out, I guess you may say this is the reason why my friendships,  relationships, and even social gatherings don't pane out to be a painted picture,

just me being a two headed person with anxiety running down the middle, I will never understand why I keep the lights out when I shine so bright, I may not understand why I dont give the world a piece of me or is it because I really can't stand what is fighting me;

I want to say hey or begin a conversation but this anxiety that lives within just holds me and replays me like an old cassette tape so, if you want to conversate please bring a pen and pad because I draw out long sentences and ramble trying to make sense of it;

I guess I got use to living in this two headed body with anxiety holding a light in my own trapped compartment 

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